Beyond the act - Thinking aloud

My act, 'you are stupid', changes my occurrence of this world. Someone laughs at me, and I think that they must think I am stupid. Right now I am thinking that I am stupid for writing this on the blog. I have been trying to 'not to feel' like this all the time. I have been successful too, in pushing those feelings under the carpet. Trying to feel that it doesn't affect me. But at some level, it always did.

The thing to note here is that why is it that I am always triggered by this statement? How is it that it always affects me so much? Is it the ego? My the reflection of the society says that being stupid is the worst of it all? How can I stop it from affecting me?

I become present to my act and that helps a lot. But then I am changing the occurrence of the world to me. But I see no way of accepting the occurrence as it is.

On the other hand, when I become present to the occurrence, am I really changing it?

Got it:

Being stupid is against the society. It makes you different from the rest of it. A stupid person does not conform to the specification laid down by the society. Being a misfit shakes your other self - the ego center created by the society in you. Hence being stupid is always a bad thing in my mind. It may not be 'stupid' for you. It could be something else. But it is just that. The moment you stray from what the society wants from you, your center is shaken and you feel bad. This is how it works. This is what gives birth to inauthenticity.