The Ego

I have come to realize that what I thought about the Ego up to now has been wrong. I have thought of ego as something that wants to be right in every situation, something that wants attention, that is responsible for all our extreme emotions like anger etc. Well, that is both right and wrong.

Ego is your very personality. If someone is submissive, then that is his ego that makes him submissive. If he is dominating and angry, then it is his ego that is at work. The real self cannot be submissive or dominating. The Act is also the ego. In fact, the act is a facet of the ego. The act is some belief we have held on to, that gets reinforced over the years. If your act is how the world occurs to you, then it just gets reinforced over and over again, each time you judge the world. It is something like wearing colored glasses. If you have been wearing red colored glasses all your life, would you even realize that all you see is red tinted? Even if you realize the red color, would you know that something without red is possible? The red tinted world would be a reality for you. Reminds me of another dialog from Revolver: "You've heard that voice for so long, you believe it to be you".

The ego keeps manifesting itself again and again. Sometimes it feels hopeless. It feels like I'll never be in that space of peace and calm again. And then, I manage to find it again. The same peace & calm. The clear head. All it requires is a little effort, to see inside your mind. Something that the mind will try to avert. It'll try to stop you. Tell you that it is futile. That you don't even remember. That little voice inside your head, it'll shout out "I don't know" a million times. Go beyond it, and then it is revealed. The ego, the act ... they are caught for what they are. And you get in control again. The real you.