During the Landmark Forum/ Advanced Course, I was able to transcend a few of these acts, or maybe just one of them. Transcending here means that I became present to them and they ceased to matter altogether. They did not have any effect on me then. Transcending does not mean that I was able to realize that my act was wrong. It was not that I realized that 'I or someone else was not Stupid' (my act being 'you are stupid'). I realized that my occurring of the world was permanently colored by the act. And by realizing that, it ceased to matter to me. That act collapsed then, and I transcended it. The real self shined through that window created in the Ego/ the Identity. And that alone gave me such lightness of mind and the vision. Some of it is getting recreated as I type this.
But the Ego changes very fast. It develops a new act to cover that window. That act start as a transparent glass, so that you will not even notice it being present there. And slowly it will add color to it. So slow would be the coloring that you won't even notice it. And after some time, you will again be seeing the world through the colored glass. The Ego also does this other trick. It will change itself to prove itself right, in a world of right & wrong it created itself. So if you got angry very quickly earlier, it will now try to control the anger, telling you that anger is bad and you are right in controlling it, like what happened when you saw the true self. But it is just a garb that the ego is wearing. When you saw your true self, there was no anger or controlling it. It didn't matter then. Realize this and transcend it. Don't try to change, just be present to it. Just realize what is happening.
When you transcend all the acts, all the egos, then you are truly enlightened.
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